blanca-thiSandThat

2011-08-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

persistence, patience, unselfishness

rejection, insult, admiration

2011-07-06T10:45:00.002+08:00

it's been more than three months but the pain is still there. how can someone hurt the person who faithfully loves? how can a weird feeling ruin something beautiful? and i thought we were strong. and i thought we love well.
i still cry myself to sleep.
if this is not meant to be, please don't prolong my agony.

2011-06-30T17:16:00.001+08:00

i'm in the crossroad

2011-06-29T16:47:00.002+08:00

i've kept a letter to keep me in touch with reality, to be always on my toes. some people don't change no matter how hard you pray.

06.19.11

2011-06-19T23:03:00.001+08:00

happiness, extreme sadness, love, extreme love, fear, hurt, self pity, excitement, peace, uncertainty, certainty, denial, betrayal, longing, comfort, security, satisfaction, embarrassment, pride, confidence, strength, anxiety, jealousy, helplessness, reassurance, friendship, courage, faith, hope ... and the list goes on.

as the list goes on, life goes on as well.

we’re only human, we’re allowed to make mistakes, we're expected to accept mistakes, we’re allowed to wallow in our hurts. We can cry. But we just have to keep going. we actually have no choice but to keep going. Although at one point, i thought of giving up on life.

life is beautiful and GOD is good all the time. In Him, nothing is impossible. In Him, there is no darkness.

Life is a non-stop roller-coaster ride, a continuous reassessment of priorities and values, and the one and only chance we have to be the best us that we can be.

It is important that we don't hurt anyone in our journey, and we forgive those who hurt us and set ourselves free from prison.

Live. Laugh. And always always LOVE well.

2011-06-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

i couldn't answer the questions my father asked me.

2011-06-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

letting go of all anger, betrayal, pain.

2011-06-06T05:09:00.000+08:00

i'm still my Papa's girl.

2011-06-03T10:00:00.002+08:00

while thinking of giving you the dose of your own medicine, i can't even tried thinking. the thought of blocking you off was too much already. how can you do this to me?

one last look

2011-06-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

just one last time looking back to all the incidents which crushed me

2011-06-01T21:16:00.001+08:00

thank you for giving me a reason to smile again. it's not about being "taken away" because that's totally BS. it's about concern and care.

2011-06-01T07:49:00.001+08:00

more than anything, i only want to be loved wholeheartedly. i want somebody who can be proud of me.

05.30.11

2011-05-30T05:54:00.005+08:00

contrary to what i wrote yesterday, I wish I didn't know. I wish I didn't have to know the truth. I should have just believe in the reality that I knew, in a bubble of reality I created - I wish I didn't burst that bubble and know the real story, because right now by confirming my fear -- it is getting the best of me. I want to run away and face danger.

yesterday i said that I accept the truth with grace and calmness despite the inevitable pain. i didn't say anything. i didn't voice out what i knew. i forgive him. and i forgive myself.

2011-05-22T21:13:00.001+08:00

why is it that i am the one with a clear conscience and yet i am the one feeling guilty & punished?

05.17.11

2011-05-17T13:05:00.004+08:00

tomorrow's my birthday. if there is one day in a year which i always look forward to -- it's my birthday. and as always, i will be doing the countdown tonight. who will be the person who will greet me at 12 midnight? let's see ; )

i just felt that it's like - i'm starting life anew. i pray that this coming year will be much better than this year. i am excited to live again and to love well as always. i welcome all the blessings. i leave all the pain, all the tears behind. i leave all the ill feelings behind. and i pray that those who hurt me one way or another may find peace in their heart as well. it's a new life after all.

though my days have been worst at times, i still reserve a reason to smile. though trials seemed to test my strength, i'm still keeping the faith. i know that after every tear that falls from my eyes comes a new spark of happiness that is even greater than every pain i felt. i will keep on believing that HE make happy endings.

I love you with all that I am

2011-05-15T11:16:00.000+08:00

I love you for always

2011-05-15T07:52:00.001+08:00

2011-05-07T19:47:00.000+08:00

my home is wherever you are

05.03.11

2011-05-03T09:16:00.002+08:00

i love and i love with all my heart, with all that i am. i was hurt but i forgive him even if he doesn't ask for it. no matter how much pain it caused me, the love that i have for him erased the pain i'm feeling. what i am going through right now is the void of his absence. i pray that he comes back, i am willing to wait for a lifetime. i love him and nothing can change that. God, i lift it all to you. please don't leave me.

2011-05-02T17:59:00.001+08:00

one great love, one lifetime

2011-04-30T16:25:00.001+08:00

i can still feel the void. without you, life is meaningless.

2011-04-30T10:14:00.001+08:00

Dear God, save me. I'm breaking into pieces.

04.30.11

2011-04-30T09:03:00.000+08:00

fighting back all the tears ... where did i go wrong?

04.28.11

2011-04-29T09:44:00.003+08:00

formalize my acceptance that i am a sinner and He is the only one who can save me

04.25.11

2011-04-25T14:30:00.003+08:00

looking back to all my previous posts, it was all negative. it was all sadness. it's time to get back on my feet and face the challenges of life with a strong will. there is nothing to be sad and be worried about. i have the iron hand. i put end to all these.

2011-04-25T14:09:00.003+08:00

done crying, finally

if you ever come back

2011-04-21T13:36:00.002+08:00

and if you're out there trying to move on
...
i'm sitting here trying to persuade you like you're in the same room ; (

now they say I'm wasting my time
Cause you're never coming home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now

there'll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat
if you ever come back

and it will just like you were never gone

holding on

2011-04-21T13:04:00.002+08:00

no cold shoulder would stop me from holding on

04.21.11

2011-04-21T12:42:00.003+08:00

The Distance
- evan and jaron

The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away

I crawl up in a corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you coming back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time 'til I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I'll take
I'm calling your name
I can't take the distance

I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I brave fire
And I brave rain
To be by your side
I do anything
I can't take the distance

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That's how much you mean
It's hard to remember as long as you're away
When I find solace there's only one way

... i can't take the distance between us

2011-04-21T07:11:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna be fine. an angel will hold my hand.

2011-04-21T04:49:00.001+08:00

shattered

mama's letter

2011-04-19T22:22:00.003+08:00

... when you told me that you usually went home from 12:00 - 1:00 am from school, I tried being awake also up to 12:00 - 1:00 am pretending waiting for you to come home, praying that nothing bad happens. But when I am too sleepy, I always say: God, please take care of Jennifer and then I'll sleep...

what love means

2011-04-19T22:19:00.001+08:00

another message from mama

"I love you ever since I conceived you ... and will love you beyond eternity.

Love, Mama"

a Mom's love

2011-04-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

i received the most beautiful love letter today and it came from my mother.

"Don't worry. I know you are safe and be able to surpass every trial / test every second, every minute, every hour of everyday. I'm praying for you always except when I'm asleep. At that time, I turned over the responsibility to God through your guardian angel...

Love, Mama"

2011-04-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

if one day, you will read my blog -- i love you. you are my life.

2011-04-17T19:39:00.002+08:00

i may be hurting but i am surrounded by the love of many angels who are showering me with love and warmth

04.17.11

2011-04-17T16:21:00.002+08:00

i wish i can change time and go back to the day where i can erase the thing i have done. i have hurt someone so bad that i breaks my heart into pieces and into the very core of my being. i hate the reason why i had done it. i was angry, i feel betrayed. i was not thinking. i am really sorry. --- Joel, I am really sorry for what happened. I didn't mean it. I just couldn't understand. I hope you know how much I love you. I am willing to give up anything for you. I am willing to do anything that would make you happy. You are my life. You are my only life. I can't stand being apart from you. I can't breathe knowing we're not yet ok, knowing there is still something to work on. What we had was a happy relationship. then all these things came between us. I am sorry that we have to go through this. I am really sorry. It was painful hearing you say that you are afraid to marry me. I don't want to think about it because I know you were upset of the situation. I am willing to wait. No question. I love you so much, it was you who I want to be with for the rest of my life. Every night and whenever I hugged you, I'd always say a prayer - I love this man, Lord. Please protect him everyday. and Everyday I do that. and nothing could ever changed that. You mean so much to me and I am sorry for hurting you. For loving you too much that you can no longer breathe in our relationship. Oh God, I am hurt to the very core of my being seeing you feel this way. I love Joel. You are my life. You are my only life.

2011-04-15T07:27:00.000+08:00

if you see someone without a smile, give yours

04.14.11

2011-04-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

a day to mark. was able to drive tagaytay road tonight. i haven't done that in years, and for the first time i drove their alone. i did not feel the fear i used to have. so, what's next for me? can't wait for my birthday. that will be definitely be 'no fear' day for me. a month to go.

04.13.11

2011-04-13T18:22:00.002+08:00

where is sunshine, the laughter, the smiles?

04.12.11

2011-04-12T19:39:00.002+08:00

love is just, emphatic, sincere, unassuming and selfless

04.11.11

2011-04-11T01:17:00.001+08:00

as i watch you sleep, i know that what i felt in my heart is true

04.10.11

2011-04-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

"Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. But finding a true soul mate is an even better feeling. A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, will be there for you forever, no matter what. They say that nothing lasts forever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after we're gone." Cecelia Ahern (PS, I Love You) love don't ask what and why

you'll never be the one that got away

2011-04-09T21:16:00.003+08:00

i've read this article years ago in an email about the one that got away. there's the question of "what might have been". and i was reminded of that ... big time today... he will never be the one that got away. "hey you, you're the one that almost got away". it's a great feeling in the end to be able to say that because i don't want him to be the one that got away.

2011-04-09T20:27:00.001+08:00

i love you and that's all that matters

i love my baby so much

2011-04-09T20:16:00.004+08:00

disposing all the negative energy. i learned a lesson the hard way and i am really sorry. i felt the world is melting in my own eyes, i felt the pain and it pains more because i was the one who caused things to fall apart. and i am really really really sorry. i love my baby so much and i can't imagine life without him. this time, i need to make sure that i will do my very best to deserve his love. joel, i love you with all my heart. and i am sorry. you may not be able to read this but i hope one day, you will understand how much you mean to me. i can't imagine life without you. i don't know how to face every day if you weren't there. you give life meaning. and i am really really sorry.

2011-03-19T07:42:00.001+08:00

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters a table leg breaks or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart when that breaks it s completely silent.

the Great debaters

2010-08-30T21:47:00.002+08:00

"St. Augustine said, "An unjust law is no law at all." Which means I have a right, even a duty to resist. With violence or civil disobedience. You should pray I choose the latter."

2010-03-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

one song keeps me going

2010-03-13T21:56:00.003+08:00

it's been awhile since the last time i post here, and i missed writing to myself. school is very demanding, there's tons of work! i definitely missed the weekends : (

2009-10-10T10:20:00.007+08:00

whenever i'm depressed, thoughts of coffee talk calm me. latte & carrot cake, mango tart, mango crepe. sigh!

day 1

2009-09-16T23:39:00.003+08:00

"Leadership springs from within. It's about who I am as much as what I do."

this sums up what i learned from class today. oh, i really love going to school. amidst the assignments and paper works, nothing beats continuous learning. didn't i mention that in my previous blog already? talk about stressing a point.

after i survive this term, i might take 2 subjects next term. let's see.

i receive a mostly meet rating in my job evaluation for last year's performance. i felt i exceeded expectations though.

2009-09-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

i'm not a fan of the "ber" season

the kite runner

2009-09-09T13:42:00.002+08:00

although i've read the book and watched the movie, watching it again still makes me cry.

no amount of good doing could compensate the pain he caused his friend. there is a way to be good again, but i think it's too late.

Up

2009-09-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

a wilderness explorer is a friend to all, be it bird or fish or tiny mole!

2009-08-31T13:48:00.003+08:00

what a desolate place would be a world without a flower

2009-08-31T13:45:00.001+08:00

the art of enjoying solitude

2009-08-08T01:35:00.002+08:00

just happy that in few weeks time, i will be back to school. although i fear the idea of studying, assignments, exams and research -- nothing beats continuous learning!

going back to school

2009-08-08T01:33:00.001+08:00

i'm going back to school again. yipee!

missing the woman of democracy

2009-08-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

august 1, 2009
3:18 am

by ninoy aquino for cory aquino

i have fallen in love with the same woman three times
in a day spanning 19 years of tearful joys and joyful tears.

i loved her first when she was young,
enhanting and vibrant, eternally new
she was brilliant, fragrant,
and cool as the morning dew.

i fell in love with her the second time
when fist she bore her child and mine
always by my side, the source of strength,
helping to turn the tide.

But there were candles to burn
the world was my concern
while our home was her domain
and the people were mine
while the children were hers to maintain.

So it was in those eighteen years and a day
'till i was detained, forced in prison to stay

suddenly she's our sole support
source of comfort,
our wellspring of Hope
on her shoulders felt burden of Life.

i fell in love again,
with the same woman the third time.
Looming from the battle,
her courage will never fade.

Amidst the hardships she has remained,
undaunted and unafraid
she is calm and composed,
she is God's lovely maid.

when the future is uncertain

2009-07-12T21:54:00.001+08:00

do you expect me to plan? naye, i will not wait for long anymore.

fast car

2009-05-28T23:56:00.004+08:00

approaching life as if there is tomorrow

living today and feeling no sorrow

holding on to memories that are in the past

driving in the fast lane of life, moving too fast

sigh

2009-04-25T20:57:00.001+08:00

he was singing Your Call earlier. dead ma. As if I didn't know.
sigh.

...

2009-04-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

... be home for good ...

i miss mickey

2009-04-09T19:42:00.004+08:00

it is during times like this when i'm alone, flashes of memories play like a movie in my mind. i miss japanese. i miss coffee. i miss mickey.

life is

2009-04-07T23:48:00.004+08:00

life is Yearning, go after it

travel

2009-04-01T22:08:00.001+08:00

where should i go next week?

when i met you

2009-03-21T23:35:00.003+08:00

... and it all began when i met you

the 4 lands of Disney

2009-03-21T22:04:00.009+08:00

We had the grand circle tour of the Park by riding the excursion-style train. After which is the visit in the Main Street USA where I get to see Pixar animation, featuring the spinning Toy Story Zoetrope. Nearby is the Animation Academy where I “almost” learn how to draw Mickey Mouse. Well, I indeed up with just looking around how my classmates were doing.

Fantasyland is like walking through a magical portal. Mickey’s Philhar Magic, Cinderella Carousel, “The Golden Mickeys” and “The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh” are among the attractions here. Next stop is the discovery of space exploration, battle with Buzz lighter, and an interaction with Stitch in Tomorrowland. And a short visit to Adventureland as we were getting ready to watch the Parade.

and yes, I finally met Mickey!

before mickey & i met

2009-03-14T21:59:00.012+08:00

if there is one thing i love doing, it's travelling. nothing beats the joy of discovery. i'll be posting my travel destination from now on. and i am starting with the most recent one, the Hongkong trip. the first trip for this year and yes, finally, mickey & i met.

Hongkong is one of the world’s principal port cities and a leading financial center of Asia and the world. Hongkong offers a host of memorable tourist attractions within its compact area, always reinventing itself balances old traditional charm with modern sophistication.

....before meeting mickey ...

always here for you

2009-02-28T21:05:00.002+08:00

i will always be here for you

tough times

2009-01-27T19:28:00.002+08:00

a deepening economic crisis, tough times

the witch of portobello

2009-01-05T21:12:00.007+08:00

" I was trying to come round to the idea that there might be an invisible reality capable of interfering in our lives, but only reason I did so was because of a love I didn't want to believe I felt but which was continuing to grow in a subtle, devastating way.

I was content in my universe and didn't want to change it at all, even though I was being propelled in that direction."

Paulo Coelho (The Witch of Portobello)

the good old days

2008-12-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

had a chat with an old friend and we were reminiscing the good old days. brought me back to memory lane where everything is so familiar. conversation of what was life back then and how it has changed now, the usual exchange of souvenirs, our petty differences, the number and our shared "Credo".

the "Credo" which speaks of our need to be understood and to be accepted.

A Credo for My Relationships with Others

You and I are in a relationship which I value and want to keep. We are also two separate persons with our own individual values and needs.

So that we will better know and understand what each of us values and needs, let us always be open and honest in our communication.

When you are experiencing a problem in your life, I will try to listen with genuine acceptance and understanding in order to help you find your own solutions rather than imposing mine. And I want you to be a listener for me when I need to find solutions to my problems.

At those times when your behavior interferes with what I must do to get my own needs met, I will tell you openly and honestly how your behavior affects me, trusting that you respect my needs and feelings enough to try to change the behavior that is unacceptable to me. Also, whenever some behavior of mine is unacceptable to you, I hope you will tell me openly and honestly so I can try to change my behavior.

And when we experience conflicts in our relationship, let us agree to resolve each conflict without either of us resorting to the use of power to win at the expense of the other's losing. I respect your needs, but I also must respect my own. So let us always strive to search for a solution that will be acceptable to both of us. Your needs will be met, and so will mine--neither will lose, both will win.

In this way, you can continue to develop as a person through satisfying your needs, and so can I. Thus, ours can be a healthy relationship in which both of us can strive to become what we are capable of being. And we can continue to relate to each other with mutual respect, love and peace.

Dr. Thomas Gordon

hmmm... so easy to say

blog award

2008-11-23T13:24:00.006+08:00

a long overdue post

Thanks so much to the great writer MyAutumnDream for she has nominated me for this award. This is very much appreciated. So I now pass it on to the following bloggers:

MyAutumDream

The Seeker

I love the blogs of these people and I'm glad to pass this award onto them!

All they need to do is to leave the following message on their post when they pass the award on to their chosen eight bloggers:They all are charmed with the blogs, where in the majority of its aims are to show the marvels and to do friendship; there are persons who are not interested when we give them a prize and then they help to cut these bows; do we want that they are cut or that they propagate? Then let's try to give more attention to them! So with this prize we must deliver it to 8 bloggers that in turn must make the same thing and put this text.

letters to a young poet

2008-11-23T12:38:00.004+08:00

thanks to vera for lending me her book -- "letters to a young poet" by rainer maria rilke. a book one can read over and over again. true enough that i bought my own copy.

"...for what i could say about your tendency to doubt or about your inability to bring your outer and inner lives into harmony or about all the other things that oppress you -: is just what i have already said: just the wish that you may find in yourself enough patience to endure and enjoy simplicity to have faith; that you may gain more and more confidence in what is difficult and in your solitude among other people. And for the rest, let life happen to you. Believe me: life is in the right . always."

at the bottom

2008-11-18T21:50:00.004+08:00

i was just reminded that it's the season once again. and like what i wrote last year, i don't exactly look forward to it. i feel more lethargic. like, i want to go some place else and just wait till it's 2009. so 2009, please hurry up.

red laptop bag

2008-11-15T13:12:00.005+08:00

yey, i'm going to buy that red laptop bag today. better hurry up!
thanks to The Seeker who inspires me, love those shoes.

thanks for the memories

2008-11-08T21:47:00.006+08:00

i started reading cecelia ahern when brother vince lend me a copy of Rosie Dunne. i love the story that i bought a copy for my boyfriend as a gift. i am indeed a cecelia ahern loyal fan, i have copies of all her books, watched P.S. I love You and Samantha Who as well.

Rosie Dunne reminds me of the exchange of text messages, e-mails, conversations I had with Elias. (or should i say, i was reminded of Rossie Dunne when i had an unending exchange of messages with Elias, since the book came first before the bf). P.S. I Love You is a light and heart warming read. If You Could See Me Now is an interesting reminder of our imaginary friend. and A Place Called Here has been a favorite phrase since I first read it. i have been waiting for a copy of Thanks for the Memories since i first heard about it in her website, imagine how excited i was when i finally have a copy.

"Joyce nearly lost everything else, a marriage in pieces and lost her baby. but she survived the terrible accident and now, inexplicably, she can remember faces she has never seen, cobblestone Parisian streets she's never visited. a sudden, overwhelming sense of deja vu have Joyce feeling as if her life is not her own. Justin, on the other hand, decides to donate blood, the first thing to come straight from his heart in a long time. from a failed marriage, he chased his ex-wife and daughter from chicago to london. and now, restless & tired, he lectures college students in dublin. everything changed with arrival of anonymous presents that will launch Justin into a heart of mystery and forever alter two lives."

the story, i must say, is predictable and it's not as interesting as the other books. but, i so love the cover and like i said, i am an unconditional ahern fan. this doesn't stop me from looking forward to reading The Gift which is already available in UK. i wonder when i can find it in the local store, ahhh..

thanks for the memories... "how is it possible to know someone you've never met?"

drink IQ

2008-11-05T21:42:00.001+08:00

drink responsibly, it's a global thing

moving too fast

2008-11-03T21:54:00.003+08:00

during our busiest days, time seems never enough. we, often times, hope we can freeze time and try to grasp the seconds. we move too fast.

we need to slow down. when we do, each second ticks a little longer than the usual.

"open your eyes a little wider and look at everything. take it all in. remember people, times and occassions gone by. allow everything you see to remind you of something"

waiting

2008-11-02T09:43:00.002+08:00

The butterfly counts not months, But moments

celebrate life

2008-10-31T21:53:00.002+08:00

celebrating life every day, everywhere.

i'm loving every day. i'm energized with every new discovery. i'm proud of where i belong. i look forward to destination 2011. cheers!

what is IS ...

2008-10-29T17:49:00.001+08:00

"what is IS, and no amount of gnashing teeth on my part will change that."

Brisingr

2008-10-22T07:23:00.004+08:00

i have been anticipating the release of the 3rd book of the inheritance cycle since i read "Eldest". imagine my joy when i finally got a hardbound copy of the book.

it's "unputdownable". an-almost-750 pages-book-of-several-events-and-action. i was disappointed though because i expected that this will be the last book. apparently, another book is coming

i like the series, named my car "Saphira" after Eragon's dragon.

i love you this much award

2008-10-11T07:20:00.005+08:00

This award is made for those bloggers that you really love.Rule:· LINK THE PERSON WHO STARTED THIS AWARD (That's ♥GEnYZe♥)· Link to the person who "LOVE" you (It's autumn dream)·
Post the rules on your blog (this is what you are now reading).· Tag 7 people at the end of your post and link to them..· Let each person know they have been "LOVED" and leave a comment on their blog...
I'm spreading the LOVE to the following:

autumn dream

the seeker

nights of rodanthe

2008-10-10T14:15:00.005+08:00

i was furious last night when i received an email from such an imbecile officemate. i know that it is best to talk about issues offline rather than the lengthy exchange of emails, but i am only human. and i don't tolerate people getting away when they offend me. no way, i always take my revenge. bad as it sounds, but that's me. i fight. and so, when i woke up this morning. i'm frustrated that i am still angry. i decided to read "nights of rodanthe" to influence some nostalgic effect to the guerilla that i have become.

and as always, Nicholas Sparks inspired and brings out the sentimental side of me. i end up reading the book in one sitting.

i will definitely watch the movie.

"for those who don't believe that love can blossom as quickly as it did for Paul and Adrienne, it can, and it's real as love that takes years to form."

and as for that dumb officemate, i still don't wish him well

of fear & anxiety

2008-10-08T22:58:00.004+08:00

i'm disappointed with myself. i didn't expect unforeseen detours.

what i recently read explains what's within me.

"will i ever get rid of fear & anxiety? they say, yes but there is a caveat. we go through periods of fear and anxiety only to come our normal for a time. the caveat lies in our inability to face our fears. if one mope around feeling sorry for one's self then yes progress towards effective anxiety management delays."

but, hey. tomorrow's gonna be a great day. there's no room for feeling sorry for any wrong decision. i won't let my worries get the best of me. no way!

how to climb mountains

2008-10-07T22:18:00.004+08:00

from Like the Flowing River

" Be joyful when you reach the top. Cry, clap your hands, shout out loud that you made it; let the wind purify your mind, cool your hot, weary feet, open your eyes, blow the dust out of your heart. What was once only a dream, a distant vision, is now part of your life. You made it, and that is good."

Celebrate Life!

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2008-09-27T18:43:00.004+08:00

Those who failed to oppose me,

who readily agreed with me,

accepted all my views,

and yielded easily to my opinions,

were those who did me the most injury,

and were my worst enemies,

because, by surrendering to me so easily,

they encouraged me to go too far...

I was then too powerful for any man, expect myself, to injure me.

-Napoleon Bonaparte

to sail

2008-09-23T22:21:00.005+08:00

sail to see the sunset of the new horizon;

smell the sweet smells of the sea breeze;

to sail in the serene blue sea

adaptability

2008-09-16T21:21:00.006+08:00

in preparation for my job interviews, i have been reading the-so-called-serious-books lately. not fiction this time, maybe while i am busy looking for better opportunity. now, discover your strengths by Marcus Buckingham talks about each person's greatest room for growth which is in the areas of his strengths. and so, i decided to take the exam honestly. this i discover -- one of my strengths is adaptability.

Adaptability - you live in the moment. you don't see the future as a fixed destination. instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. this doesn't mean that you don't have plans. you probably do. adaptabilitydoes enable you to respond willingly to demands of the moment even pull you away from your plans. you don't resent sudden requests or unforeseend detours. you expect them. they are inevitable. indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them, you are, at heart, a very flexible person who can stay productive when the demands of work are pulling you in many different directions at once.

and as for my applications, i have my final interview tomorrow. if i got this job, it will be a 360 degrees change in environment but a great opportunity for me to grow. let's see.. what will be, will be. sounds Adaptability to me, cheers!

in between

2008-09-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

saw this couple in caleruega, batangas

"and where is the line between romantic and delusional?

and how do you know once you cross the set line?

do we live in the world we physically touch?

or do we live in the world created by our minds?"

hold my hand

2008-09-08T21:30:00.004+08:00

thea & osh in enchanted

just suppose that shaping and moulding of destiny is one's destiny? and it is the bridge you build to the one you love. when the road seems uncertain, hold my hand. and i am destined to be there for you and hold your hand.

i love this world (discovery channel's song)

2008-08-24T22:07:00.003+08:00

i love the mountains
i love the clear blue skies
i love big bridges
i love when great whites fly
i love the whole world

2008-08-24T21:56:00.001+08:00

and all its sights and sounds
i love the oceans
i love real dirty things
i love to go fast
i love the whole world

2008-08-24T21:33:00.004+08:00

and all its craziness
i love the whole world
it's such a brilliant place

xavier

2008-08-11T20:18:00.002+08:00

attended vince's son's baptismal last Sunday, xavier is so adorable. an angel.

Sundays at Tiffany's

2008-08-03T23:12:00.003+08:00

while waiting for elias, i spent time in a bookstore and got myself 2 books. one, the prince by niccolo machiavelli and james patterson's new book Sundays at Tiffany's. it was probably the after-effect of cecilia ahern's if you could see him now which made me bought this book. these books were about kid's imaginary friend. with such interests, i probably have one imaginary friend as a kid. was he Ivan or Michael?

children have imaginary friends to help them find their place in the world. if once in my childhood, i had one. i believe that today my imaginary friend is myself. the difference is unlike imaginary friends who will leave you once you turned nine-year old, i don't.

as for the book, i'm still half way reading it. so far, i like the story. a simple sweet love story which says Love means you can never be apart.

just another day

2008-07-31T22:10:00.005+08:00

In usual conversations, our boss would tell us story about his youngest child. We end up telling him that he is his favorite which he constantly denies having a favorite child and that he loves them all equally. Parents will never admit having a favorite child. Do they really have one or we just thought so.

All I know is that I am never the favorite child. I am the distant one, the Rebel and the unattached. But, I must say, I am the favorite granddaugther.